Me and myself...

It has been more than a month….many things had happened…be it good or bad…things happened and I could only thanked him for the experience…

It’s always hard to say sorry…especially when there’s no beer to soak a dry mouth or perhaps to fill up a hungry stomach….

Since my return from UK…bad things happened continuously…I’m not about penning them down here…just let it slip through the time...huhu…time heals everything? That’s not quite right to be honest….it doesn’t heal anything, instead it helps on delaying things to be dealt with….at the end we still have to deal with it...trust me....

For about a month…I’ve visited DH not more than 5 times….I had so many things to say but I found it hard to tell the world to what I’ve become…the biggest change is that I’ve lost more than 6 Kg since the Mount Kinabalu trip in Feb and UK trip in March….almost all my short/long pants including jeans have gone loose on my waist….shirt and t-shirt looks bigger than usual….small sized t-shirts look just right and comfortable ever since...yet underwear does not seem to be affected….the question now, what is my current weight? I’m about to enter 61 Kg in a couple more weeks perhaps if I keep on with my life style now….less beer, less food and less internet and more job…

Speaking about job/work…these couple of weeks since early April…things gone pretty bad in Malaysia….both new colleagues had resigned…a new colleague joined in…gone through the training phase with me…developer off for 2 month maternity leave…management busy with interviewing new colleagues….having said that, I and the manager have to sacrifice our time and work to ensure Penang office is still running up to standard….pressure from the HQ becoming tougher than usual…..worst, our 12 years Tech Director is about to leave the company in 3 months time…he’s the expert who had helped the company to grow from nothing to something bigger than expected these past 12 years….It’s not too much if I say almost 70% of our current system/procedures were designed and implemented by him when he first joined the company….so many other things…most of them P&C….shush…

Penang...in 2 weeks time, another colleague (my successor) is off for 3 weeks straight for her wedding ceremony and honeymoon…..thankfully the management willing to approve her 3 weeks leave or else I have to speak to the CEO and offer myself to work straight 1 month for UK shift (night) just to ensure that she will not have to resign and leave…there only me, her and the Manager has the capability to work UK shift right now….I can’t afford to lose another colleague…

Sometimes I wish I could turn back time…change several things that I wish I have never had said or done…well, it’s a fairy tale if one can turns back time…the most precious asset I have is my memories…it’s the beauty of a mind that a person could evolve to someone better than good….

Forgive my dear readers..

Alternative resolution to your appetite?

I kind of losing my appetite...perhaps I missed to have those local delicacies (Bosou Karuk mengkali..)...never get bored to that..

....shit anyone...

It's the end of January..can I me'rambling'?

In theory..having someone (a buddy) to work along with you would actually lessen the number of responsibility…instead, this contributes to further extra responsibility….

Perhaps having someone new….who’s learning and coping would not count…well, I’ve said it (to my manager whilst they were on training) month ago that I was a little disappointed by their performance…frankly speaking, good on papers but not in real life…that’s the bottom line here….years of experience working in customer service field and what does that makes you? Ain’t you supposed to be someone of, a better customer support? Within over 5 years experience..what have you learned?

I’m just so tired and tired and busy and busy….with the present issue we’re having with one of our customer in Oz…it’s not going to be easy to baby-sit new colleagues….still, it’s my responsibility to ensure new colleagues able to work independently…or else, I would not be able to apply leave carelessly…The manager will be on leave for 2 weeks….my other successor is on leave next week…then I will be on leave the next after (Kinabalu Trip)..within this 2 weeks period….I’m hoping things will be alright…I’ve been given 2 days next week to train my buddy colleague of all the customization work for Oz’s customers….Invoice Claim Module (consist of 7 sub-modules), Pay Award Module, Customized Reports (7 reports), Export Module (2 sub-modules) and few more of work procedure practice..i.e.Software supervisor’s user name is admin in Oz but root in UK and etc….I took even almost half a year to really get to know all these customization and now I need to do a brief presentation on all these within 2 days? How’s that going to happen? I can briefly say that, this and that…. The objective is to ensure they get the information and understand them well up until they are able to guide and support the Oz's customers....I would not know how am I going to do this..I will think of something…and hopefully I would not be tied up with development work as well….

People tend to change their career from one company to another company with lots of excuses….from a smaller company to a bigger company or vice-versa….hoping to get some kind of a career boost…there have some people would blame the company for not taking care of their employees’ welfare…its management either at a department level or overall…some due to family commitment…but the most interesting excuse of all time would always be the money….yes! I would agree with this one but still…how can someone feel happy of getting better job offer when he/she’s not even near to that particular quality of performance….I would be happy for having a better job scheme; better pay..better welfare..better in every aspect you would dream of in your career..but I would not be happy if I knew that I would not be able to perform up to that standard yet..especially when I’m not even in a comfort zone with present company…a comfort zone where I confidently think that I have achieved the higher level of respect with vast knowledge in current work of line.... it is not a good move to jump from present company to another just because a better career enhancement….perhaps, your present company is not meant for you?Do you really believe this shit? And you really believe you were meant for something greater like becoming heroes? Well, perhaps your luck and your effort are not well received at your present company but that does not mean a STOP for your career there…I love to think that whenever I’ve made a mistake, I will apology and promise to myself that I’m not going to repeat the same mistake twice or more…I motivated myself to take it as a challenge that I can be someone who knows to deal the pressure, responsibility and work it out for my career improvement….and that’s one of a reason I’m sticking to this present company…I’m getting more pressure and responsibility, which made me to think that I’m gaining more benefits of enhancing my own skills within this small company…there’s plenty more I need to learn…

Career or Sex change?

I spoke to the Tech Director last night..he phoned in from his house just to catch up with the current progress of new colleagues and wanted to ask my view point of this particular Oz’s customer that causing pain in the ass earlier this year…he gave me several managerial advices before we ended the conversation…thanks and cheers!

Pity Me....

Wel…you really need to improve your time management skill!!

Well to be honest, I’m doing good so far...it just that since my return….my work load has increased tremendously…..I would say double than I had the year before….I know what may seems the reason…that’s part of the company’s plan for my future in Penang Office…Branch Manager perhaps…haha..that’s not possible with the work load I’ve been assigned to at the moment…at this vary moment...I’m still in the office although after 14 hours…typing this royal ramble...huhu..

Today..I woke up at 7:58am due to the company's mobile phone..looking at the name on the display screen..it was our CEO…to my surprise, he called to ask the office building...hahaha...he was at the wrong building for some silly reason..haha..he had forgotten the building….the lmost recent time he came down to Penang to visit us was in Dec 2007, when he was looking for an office unit to be rented and he found this office unit that is suitable for the future of Penang Office…no wonder he was at the wrong building….I then continued my “tidur-tidur ayam” until 9:15am....I picked up my mobile phone (masih baring baring) then made a call to my colleague to check up things in the office…

I had rented a LCD Projector and requested the item to be sent into our office for a Team Meeting Presentation later that noon…It was requested by our CEO. yesterday evening actually when all the offices were already closed...thankfully I managed to get a hold to a guy from our main office appliances supplier....my colleague told me that it had not been delivered yet..no worries because we will only use the LCD Projector later around 11:30am….I then woke up and spent some of my time surfing the internet visiting several blogs for update posts as well as emails….

Around 10:05am I went to a nearby workshop…the night before...my bike had a major problem….it loses power whenever I rev up to increase its speed…worst, there seemed to have a leakage in the engine based on the smoke coming out of the exhaust….perhaps the oil seal has broken but when I arrived at the workshop…the mechanic told me that it was due to my exhaust..it was full of dried-burnt-carbon…well, the last time the exhaust was sent for service was a year ago….the mechanic was nice enough to clean it as a temporarily resolution for me...it actually need to be sent to an oven..they need to cut the exhaust then burn it in an oven to get rid of the pile of carbon inside....also because of the pile of carbon in the exhaust..it then affected the carburetor…I had no choice so I asked the mechanic to service the carburetor as well...it took about 30 minutes for all this to happen…by the time I reach home..it was almost 11:00am..we were going to have a Team Meeting later at 11:30am with the CEO doing the presentation….whilst waiting for the bike..I made several calls to ensure the LCD Projector and appointment are going as planned…to my surprise, the Accountant Director that was supposed to meet up with our CEO didn’t turn up and no news neither from her nor her company…..I called and spoke to her assistant and I was told that she was no where available for contact….I was a little mad as I had scheduled the meeting at 10:00am yet after 15 minutes there was no news from her….and according to my colleague our CEO was not very happy with this…I warned her assistance to reach her Director and give me a reason why after 15 minutes we had not heard anything from her….after about 10 minutes, he called me and apology that the Director had an emergency meeting that she had to attend…what?!!! She’s the director of a Management Company but how could she treat our CEO to wait (now already past 20 minutes) without any news!!! That was utterly stupid! I then asked him to call to the office and speak to our CEO for an apology..he did and tried to re-arrange another appointment at 11:30am at their office……I had made the appointment 2 weeks ago and reconfirmed the appointment again last Friday…I’ve also notified to let me know of in case of inevitable time reschedule…..what an attitude! Our CEO rejected the time reschedule proposal...

To be continued…..