Saturday, 9 May 2009

Me and myself...

It has been more than a month….many things had happened…be it good or bad…things happened and I could only thanked him for the experience…

It’s always hard to say sorry…especially when there’s no beer to soak a dry mouth or perhaps to fill up a hungry stomach….

Since my return from UK…bad things happened continuously…I’m not about penning them down here…just let it slip through the time...huhu…time heals everything? That’s not quite right to be honest….it doesn’t heal anything, instead it helps on delaying things to be dealt with….at the end we still have to deal with it...trust me....

For about a month…I’ve visited DH not more than 5 times….I had so many things to say but I found it hard to tell the world to what I’ve become…the biggest change is that I’ve lost more than 6 Kg since the Mount Kinabalu trip in Feb and UK trip in March….almost all my short/long pants including jeans have gone loose on my waist….shirt and t-shirt looks bigger than usual….small sized t-shirts look just right and comfortable ever since...yet underwear does not seem to be affected….the question now, what is my current weight? I’m about to enter 61 Kg in a couple more weeks perhaps if I keep on with my life style now….less beer, less food and less internet and more job…

Speaking about job/work…these couple of weeks since early April…things gone pretty bad in Malaysia….both new colleagues had resigned…a new colleague joined in…gone through the training phase with me…developer off for 2 month maternity leave…management busy with interviewing new colleagues….having said that, I and the manager have to sacrifice our time and work to ensure Penang office is still running up to standard….pressure from the HQ becoming tougher than usual…..worst, our 12 years Tech Director is about to leave the company in 3 months time…he’s the expert who had helped the company to grow from nothing to something bigger than expected these past 12 years….It’s not too much if I say almost 70% of our current system/procedures were designed and implemented by him when he first joined the company….so many other things…most of them P&C….shush…

Penang...in 2 weeks time, another colleague (my successor) is off for 3 weeks straight for her wedding ceremony and honeymoon…..thankfully the management willing to approve her 3 weeks leave or else I have to speak to the CEO and offer myself to work straight 1 month for UK shift (night) just to ensure that she will not have to resign and leave…there only me, her and the Manager has the capability to work UK shift right now….I can’t afford to lose another colleague…

Sometimes I wish I could turn back time…change several things that I wish I have never had said or done…well, it’s a fairy tale if one can turns back time…the most precious asset I have is my memories…it’s the beauty of a mind that a person could evolve to someone better than good….
Forgive my dear readers..

8 comments:

cLaiRe Bennet said...

u can always tell me about it. i'm here k. so the beer is on u la ni...hihihihi

mamaii said...

life must go on.. kuroyon podi tobpinai! gini la ba kehidupan.. yg penting beer, cheers!! aramai tiiee!!

Vera said...

Hey Wel, there's nothing to apologized about :) we are all going thru bad times and personally I'm not doing that great as well but.... like you said time heals so let's wait for that time :)
in the meantime, jagala kesihatan ko tu :)

JerryInc said...

u know what...i think i could relate with your situation. my only advice, dont focus too much on the bad stuff, ignore them and focus more on the good stuff. the more you think about the bad stuff, the more insignificant the good stuffs will be appear to be. ignorance is bliss dude and count your blessings instead :)

ps: yeah, been losing weight (big time in just 2 weeks) myself and haven't been drinking as much as i used to as well...then again, it's a good change isn't it? :)

kuai said...

*hugs*

wwuuuu... ko hilang lamaaa tul wel.. sikit sa lupa yang ko ni ada.. hehe..

nah.. we are facing same things here.. suka or nda suka..:) in different way but 'rasa' yang sama.. ^_^..

cheer up kio.. lawat la kami disini sekali sekala.. ^_^

Wel^Beiolman said...

Claire...hehe..jan ko bawa sia minum beer ba claire...ko nampak badan si wolverine? mcm tu la shape bdn sia sikarang..hehe...lagi tagap dari si 300..haha...

Mamai..ya mai...life goes on....beer kadang kala la..tua suda..makin inda logop suda..haha...cheers man!

Vera...hi vera..thanks..nope..time does not heal anything..ehe..no worries..things will be fine..seh...2009 seems to be a very tough year huh..

sweetie~ said...

wel sabar ja kau kio...hehe

Wel^Beiolman said...

Jerry...betul tu..sia sukung..haha..things getting worst there 2 months ahead..huhu..but I will survive..hehe..thanks bro..ko inda mau kirim dewars?..hahah

Kuai...hi darling..lama suda o..rindu sama ko.haha..sabar sja la kan..kalu inda sabar apa guna hidup...hehe..nanti sia lawat kamu lg kio mandak...hehe..

Sweetie...ok ba sweetie..sabar sja ni..tekad kan jiwa..haha