3 Decades Life (Almost)

I’ve been very quiet about my career life these days …I was reading my last year’s posts and I thought I had been blogging a lot of my work…my dissatisfaction towards professionalism at work etc…I guess it was due to unsettling environment but I’m glad it all paid off quite well for me…

This year seems to be prosperous for me…glad that we finally found appropriate candidates who are now my colleagues…my main responsibility is to enhance their knowledge, to supervise their work and ensure work performance is improving…although I’ve been getting higher acknowledgment from the management yet I don’t feel like I’m at that level yet…there are plenty of rooms for an improvement...being with the same company for almost 5 years now…is like being loyal to your other half…haha..I could see what I have achieved in those years...I thought of myself being fortunate for the opportunity I’ve been given and that drives me to prove to others that whatever you’re doing…make the best out of it…you got to love what you’re doing or else you’re just a slave earning money at the end of the month trying to enjoy your life…macam pakar motivasi pula kenen..haha..well, I’m not the best person to give speech of career but one thing I’ve learned from experience…never give up…it doesn’t matter what people say about you but it matters what you think of yourself…you got to believe yourself and treat every mistake as another chance to learn to get yourself ready for next challenge…do remember though to admit and accept your mistake…challenge yourself to do things you not good at is one of my best education in life…by the time I review myself for a self appraisal, I couldn’t believe I actually did what I could have avoided years ago….

Perhaps some of my dearest friends have heard of this part of my life…since childhood I’ve always hated English but amazingly every English teachers I’ve known were kind and fond of me (male and female)…mesti sebab saya cute mungkin masa budak-budak kan..haha…my father even bought this English Learning Kit for me but I never cared and always got scolded because I didn’t do anything with it…the kit was full of cassettes and exercise books…I always tried to be a passive student when it comes to English at schools yet the teachers always found a way to get me involved….perhaps it was an advantage of being a cute man-child at that time among female teachers…during my secondary school, I was the ‘green board slave’…I became the English teacher’s secretary to write on the green board…I guess my hand writing was one hell of a kind for a cute-man-child at that time…it was something like a calligraphy..orang dulu-dulu bilang tulisan sambung a.k.a tulisan doctor…tapi tidak juga jadi doctor..haha..I don’t think I could write the same way I used to cause dulu-dulu selalu tulis surat cinta jadi banyak practice la…haha…nowadays we use email, e-card and most common is text messaging to express our feeling...we’ve been modernised!! Shit!! Another reason I could think of why these teachers were fond of me is, my father’s reputation as a teacher (Penolong Kanan)…although I wasn’t into the thing with being the son of a teacher but I’m grateful of being one…hehe…

Having said the above, would you imagine someone like me who hates English as I dislike peanut ended up working with UK based company (UK and Oz based customers)…Bahasa Malaysia becomes the 2nd language…It was very difficult for me when I first joined the company…I was fortunate, the management willing to send me off to British Council Class for 2 continue courses: Business Speaking and English Pronunciation…at first I didn’t care much and thought I was just a lucky bastard but when I was made aware of the cost for these courses (over RM7000) I was more than a lucky bastard!! When I thought of it…it was one of my turning points that made me think of my job more seriously…at that moment I was assured that the company isn’t just a company to hire people but a company who would enhance and shape you to be an invaluable and credible person...neither bond nor contract were signed for me to accept this good deeds from the company…being with the company for this long, one could assume that I have nothing more to learn…well, that assumption is incorrect…I’ve got so many more to learn and the management has been very supportive enough to bring new challenge as per my seniority status…There were moments when I felt depressed (early years) and both CEO as well as the Tech Director approached me and spoke to me as if they were my friends...This has never changed except that the Tech Director had left the company to pursue his own family business…I may be in my safe zone now but I honestly never thought of that way as I have not quite achieved some other aspects…I’m just glad that all this years I’ve never gave up with what I have started….

How long I’m going to stay with the company? That’s one of the question I was asked recently by one of the Manager in the UK…I couldn’t really give definitive answer but I responded by saying something “as long as I’m happy..both responsibility and new challenges...”

Bittersweet

I have not been writing as much as I used to be..perhaps this is the real me..just a plain quiet type of person…I have been having this thought of applying for another job after over 4 years with the current company…I always tell people that I could only be thinking of migrating to another company when there’s neither new adventure nor skills to learn…yes that is true and I would not dare to say it isn’t good to others who keeps on thinking of applying job interview though…it’s up to them but when it comes to me at certain time for a wrong reason i.e. management isn’t good...colleagues not co-operating or not getting enough support from your superiors..that sounds like an excuse for not being able to cope with life and challenges…nevertheless, the person who talks about this sort of attempt is not less than a person who doesn’t quite understand about having basic survival skills of taking better care of her/himself and surrounding…too much of dream and ambition but nothing for self-enhancement?

Honestly, I’ve had this thought since last couple of months ago and some of friends have heard about it yet I have not made any attempts of doing so..I have no specific reasons for not making the first move though as I believe it was just a temporary thought and I was partially correct on this…I’d love to learn few more new skills if I may in near time though..maybe the time hasn’t come just yet….These couple of days in 2010 had been quite a mess for me…things happened unconditionally…I could only look for resolution to stay afloat to go through the journey…hell to love! It’s not about love/relationship at all…some people have been advising me of staying single for too long isn’t good for me...they may be correct and I couldn’t deny what was advised but I do have my own reasons for not being into relationship anymore…it’s just not fun anymore although it could bring joyful life once you’ve found the one…haha…in fact, I've never thought of myself a lonely person as I have number of really good friends (I could share good and bad with them) we could find love in many different ways though...spending time watching korean drama series the whole day and night with housemates (plus a crate of beer)...hanging out with friends (although me and Jew have started to realized that there are only both us left enjoying drinking beer at every possibilities in Penang compared to previous years) and my utmost passion of having lots of DVDs to watch..haha…having said that, I’ve spread some of my love towards other living thing surrounding me...we’ve been complaining on the hot weathers since the beginning of 2010 and it was a pity to see a tree without enough leaves to be called a tree….every night after returning home from work, I gave it its need to stay alive during the hot weather…although I knew it is not belong to me to pour water or to take care of it but I couldn’t stop thinking either it will survive the weather or will not…every single day at night and sometimes during day…I poured about 2-3 liters of water at its foundation, after days of doing that I could see new tiny leaves started to grow from its dried branches…I was relieved and happy I could at least do this small part of humanitarian to my surrounding…today, after a heavy rain in more than a month, I could see more green leaves as a new beginning…

A friend has moved to KL last 2 weeks ago due to a new career path….about 9 of us had a decent dinner then continued with couple bottles of beer at the usual place (kedai kopi dusun) although the farewell wasn’t grand and happening but it was great to catch up with others…all the best to him in KL…I’ve known him since 1999 when we were in matriculation…we’ve had great times together ever since…in near time soon, perhaps another friend will be moving down to KL? If you ask me, I have no intention of moving anywhere else at the moment as I love Penang as much as I love Sabah (too bad telampau banyak pilak di Sabah makes it less attractive) It’s been over 10 years o….haha...

I’m having my day off today and I don’t really have anything in mind what to do…most likely I will be spending my time doing DVD (old) Marathon….I’m not addicted to DVD but it is a fun way to spend time, relaxing by watching many types of movies…by now I could roughly estimate 1000 DVDs in my possession (not less but it could be more as I have stopped doing the list since middle last year) sometimes watching movie trailers on Astro led me to re-watch my DVDs…this mostly due to inability to remember the exact story line….having a hobby like me, one will not need to waste time wandering in nearby shopping mall the whole day, window shopping (or shopping) then regret the day after (Sakit kaki, salah beli atau kehabisan duit..haha)

20 Days 20 Nigths in 2010

Test 1..2…3…test…

Wah…20 days suda inda mengupdate blog o….tidak banyak kejadian mungkin..atau tiada apa yang mau di cakap…mungkin juga teda mood mau menulis atau mungkin suda boring dengan apa yang terjadi di persekitaran terutamanya isu-isu dalam Negara….Sia rasa permulaan 2010 kali ni agak baik berbanding 2009 lepas….bukan mau kasi banding tapi every year..kita buli agak-agak suda what might or could happen kalu awal tahun lagi macam-macam suda kejadian di tempat keja kan…so for me this year…it was just nice….gembira juga sebab junior staff suda pandai berdikari instead of depending too much on me...mimang banyak lagi durang mau improve tapi after 5 months with them..I think they're doing quite good…susah juga young lads ni kan…ada saja free masa untuk curi tulang mimang automatis digunakan untuk curi tulang juga instead of doing something worth for their knowledge enhancement….

My health this year…I think I might get ill beberapa kali…last week I was not feeling well on Tuesday and yesterday I started to feel warm then sneezing…hari ni kerongkong mula rasa-rasa lain suda….macam antibody suda lemah sikit…need to do something la this….need to eat more fruits and minum more beer..haha…

My financial…too early to tell…but I don’t think it would make any different this year..maybe a little tight this year la.….ada beberapa plan dalam kepala and hopefully I can make them all come true la (house, kereta, kapal terbang, bot, perabot and etc)….buy that and this…pay that and this…paling benci mau membayar income tax every month..macam makin lama makin banyak pula tau…I never really care pasal my pay slip as long as I got paid tapi since beberapa bulan lepas…I began to check few details and I found out my income tax getting higher pula tau…mau juga jadi rakyat yang baik berbakti untuk Negara kenen bayar tax tapi kalu income tax almost and sometimes over 10% off net income sepa la buli tahan kan…I need to check with the management la this…sayang tu duit tu tau…huhu…

Husky the bengong….we left him selama 17 hari di boarding place for dog…when we came back and picked him up…wow! I was a little disappointed with the service…we pay RM17 per day for him to stay there but he ended up kurus kering compared to when he first went there… entah la…kana kasi makan kah tidah…when we got home…makan dengan lahapnya..minum dengan sepuasnya..so ketara inda cukup makan di sana….RM17 per day is more than enough for a man to survive but a dog??

Isu semasa…”allah”….am not qualified to comment pasal ni tapi tertarik di hati apabila isu ini menjadi sangat besar when it shouldn’t…when people ask my opinion on this…I explained to them..I don’t really care…I don’t mind if we couldn’t use it or can use it…I can have “Wel” as a replacement to “allah” if I want to...do not jadi macam sia k…ajaran sesat but it’s in your heart not mouth that matters…if you say your God’s name “Wel”, believing and thinking of your God...would that really make a different…well, I just know that we cannot samakan God to another….but by calling “Wel” as a name to God I don’t think it would create 2 Gods kan…when I read pasal ni over the internet…mimang ada yang bikin panas tapi durang pun manusia…we all banyak kelemahan and until we accept our kelemehan….I don’t think this issue can be resolved…

Today…am not quite well..macam ada tanda-tanda sakit kerongkong suda..huhu…mau p bili beer la ni..nasib lagi hari ni am off…my manager is on Holiday for 2 weeks since last week so every authorization has to go through me if it comes from Penang…today plan mau rest saja sambil-sambil tinguk DVD (marathon)..hehee..

So 2010..things am looking forward to...Schumi is back in the pit lane of Formula 1 race...I'm so excited about this as he's a living F1 legend (he won races and championships more than anybody in F1 history) this could be interesting...since his retirement, I totally ditch the F1 live telecast from my favourite channel to watch but not this year I guess..he's hunting for the 8th Championship and predicted he could do it within his 3 years contract with Mercedes....and of course weddings...May/June..August...Nov and last of course December...December is packed with wedding; my bro, my old school mate and a friend...wah looks like I have to travel back to Sabah couple of times la this year...no worries as long as I could be with them..hehe..a'ight..chao!

Greeting 2010

Good bye and farewell to the year 2009...

The year 2009 has brought more money into my pocket...more responsibility in my career as 'buruh kasar'...

I met several new friends in 2009 (blogger and non-blogger)...thanks for the friendship and sorry if I couldn't be at your events....

I met few of my U-mates (Helga's Wedding) and it was great having them around..as if U life has never ended and it was just yesterday! Happy to meet all of them...cheers!

Spent my Christmas and an advanced New Year celebrations with family and relatives in Tambunan...had a great time catching up...

Spent my New Year's eve at home (KK) resting..a clean New Year's eve - no alcohol...thinking of what have I achieved in 2009...mistakes I had done in 2009...meaningful moments in 2009....events/parties in 2009 and of course wondering what would 2010 be....

Greeting and welcoming year 2010...bring it on!

Separation..

There will be time when even best friends have to choose their own path in life to live successful life…

It’s going to be a tough moment missing each other every now and day...

Some might say, 6 months period is not a long separation…yet some might have a different thought...

I don’t know what am I going to do without you...I’m sure the amount of beer will be reduced significantly...certainly helping my weight..

I wish you all the best wishes in your career and everyday life there…

When there’s time and will, I know we’ll be together again…. I will wait for you....

I’ll take good care of anything you’ve temporarily-left behind...you know I have access to all that….

Don’t worry about us please..haha…kalu worry pandai-pandai la kirimkan bekalan secrate-dua….

Bon Voyage Mr Jew… jangan kau cuba pura-pura lupa tugasan bulanan mu….hehe..

Cheers!

It's the end of January..can I me'rambling'?

In theory..having someone (a buddy) to work along with you would actually lessen the number of responsibility…instead, this contributes to further extra responsibility….

Perhaps having someone new….who’s learning and coping would not count…well, I’ve said it (to my manager whilst they were on training) month ago that I was a little disappointed by their performance…frankly speaking, good on papers but not in real life…that’s the bottom line here….years of experience working in customer service field and what does that makes you? Ain’t you supposed to be someone of, a better customer support? Within over 5 years experience..what have you learned?

I’m just so tired and tired and busy and busy….with the present issue we’re having with one of our customer in Oz…it’s not going to be easy to baby-sit new colleagues….still, it’s my responsibility to ensure new colleagues able to work independently…or else, I would not be able to apply leave carelessly…The manager will be on leave for 2 weeks….my other successor is on leave next week…then I will be on leave the next after (Kinabalu Trip)..within this 2 weeks period….I’m hoping things will be alright…I’ve been given 2 days next week to train my buddy colleague of all the customization work for Oz’s customers….Invoice Claim Module (consist of 7 sub-modules), Pay Award Module, Customized Reports (7 reports), Export Module (2 sub-modules) and few more of work procedure practice..i.e.Software supervisor’s user name is admin in Oz but root in UK and etc….I took even almost half a year to really get to know all these customization and now I need to do a brief presentation on all these within 2 days? How’s that going to happen? I can briefly say that, this and that…. The objective is to ensure they get the information and understand them well up until they are able to guide and support the Oz's customers....I would not know how am I going to do this..I will think of something…and hopefully I would not be tied up with development work as well….

People tend to change their career from one company to another company with lots of excuses….from a smaller company to a bigger company or vice-versa….hoping to get some kind of a career boost…there have some people would blame the company for not taking care of their employees’ welfare…its management either at a department level or overall…some due to family commitment…but the most interesting excuse of all time would always be the money….yes! I would agree with this one but still…how can someone feel happy of getting better job offer when he/she’s not even near to that particular quality of performance….I would be happy for having a better job scheme; better pay..better welfare..better in every aspect you would dream of in your career..but I would not be happy if I knew that I would not be able to perform up to that standard yet..especially when I’m not even in a comfort zone with present company…a comfort zone where I confidently think that I have achieved the higher level of respect with vast knowledge in current work of line.... it is not a good move to jump from present company to another just because a better career enhancement….perhaps, your present company is not meant for you?Do you really believe this shit? And you really believe you were meant for something greater like becoming heroes? Well, perhaps your luck and your effort are not well received at your present company but that does not mean a STOP for your career there…I love to think that whenever I’ve made a mistake, I will apology and promise to myself that I’m not going to repeat the same mistake twice or more…I motivated myself to take it as a challenge that I can be someone who knows to deal the pressure, responsibility and work it out for my career improvement….and that’s one of a reason I’m sticking to this present company…I’m getting more pressure and responsibility, which made me to think that I’m gaining more benefits of enhancing my own skills within this small company…there’s plenty more I need to learn…

Career or Sex change?

I spoke to the Tech Director last night..he phoned in from his house just to catch up with the current progress of new colleagues and wanted to ask my view point of this particular Oz’s customer that causing pain in the ass earlier this year…he gave me several managerial advices before we ended the conversation…thanks and cheers!

She was not meant to be...

Early today...as I had expected yesterday..well not that I was hoping for that to happen..it just that I sensed something from her...I tried to think it was just a rubbish chat from her but what happened earlier today was the reality that we have to accept and endure...

It was her first time yesterday..I know I should have been more gentle..be more soft towards her...yeah..she's a lady who loves to be pampered...who wouldn't? Although everything went well yesterday...she has to do what she had to..I know I'm not her type nor her taste...least I could do was..just let her go and enjoy the freedom she could probably have....I I really hope that she will find the right one she's been looking for......I'll have to move on and try to look at the brighter side out of this event...I'm happy enough to get the chance to know her.....I guess, we were just not meant to be.....we'll keep on looking then...fuhhh....

Great thing was, it cost us only a day..wasting our time trying to make her fells more comfortable around us.....she came in yesterday 1 hour earlier before the actual hours then spent around another hour discussing the terms and regulations of employment with the manager....another 10 mins then I started training her on our software..she was our 'new-one-day-support-specialist'...she's a mum of 2 with a 5 years experience in Customer Service field....not really sure how old she is but her 1st child is already 20 year-old..she seemed nice and very formal....to be honest..due to her age and status..I had to re-consider the method I was going to use in order to train her....so I began with a short introduction about the software...then bit by bit I brought her into the real thing..the actual software itself....started with the most basic or default knowledge on how to load the software...then logged into the software.... took a break for couple of minutes and I continued by doing some revision...asked several basic questions based on whatever I had trained her earlier..Good! she was slow but I wasn't expecting she could remember them in one go...around 30 mins before the time for me to leave the office....we had gone through less than 10% of the software..still with basic knowledge i.e. Add, Remove and Modify process....I then heard a whisper that came from her side of the table asking me if in case she thinks, she couldn't do this within 2 weeks..is she free to leave? without trying to persuade her, I then said something stupid...haha..well I don't like to hold her if she has already thought about that herself..she has actually given up....explained to her how the procedure works.....then what happened today...she came in and headed straight to the manager office...for about 20 minutes in the room...they then came out and the manager then told us she's leaving...salam-salam la ba..atleast she didn't waste much more of our time training her then in the end..she quits juga..hahaha..

We now have another new staff that is schduled to come in later next week..it's a guy with 3 years experience in support..what's going to happen then? I would not know and I don't really care at this time....I discussed with my manager if he has any other backup plan because he's going to fly to UK again later this weekend and will only be back in January 2009.....he told me that yes he had but worried if the candidate is easily affected by emotion as he is still young...ya la orang muda senang kena pengaruh...he hasn't decided yet...so mostly today, I was the one pula been given a training on our co-software by the manager..he had recently been trained on how to use the software so we were like...try and error method...of course he's good with his knowledge but not to some other features....we were experimenting the features and shared our personal understanding....wahahaha..

2000 Hits!

Officially, Designated Hermitage has now been visited 2000 times in less than 2 years. My first post was as follow

Welcome (dated back to 25th Nov 2006)

As the name says "Designated Hermitage", this is going to be d' Amazing blog in future to come. Would it be? Well, you may say "nah..." or "...mmm....", time will tell and those who believe "live your dream and it will come to you" would probably agree with me though. It doesn't matter what other people going to say because it is not my business to listen and live up to their expectations or needs. I'm doing this for my own satisfaction and most importantly living my dream.

Once before, a man called Beiolman said "You may call me beiolman but I'm not the only one, I hope someday you will join me and let the world be beiol-ed"

Less than 5 months to my first post's anniversary, DH managed to survive the kind of tsunami, earth quake, riots, political melt down etc..when I first signed up for Blogger.com I was just a kid in virtual world of blogging..well I was actully an active IRC user, way back 1999 - 2000..hehe..and those days..internet was still new to Malaysian..including me..I don't know if I can label myself or qualified as an amateur in computer (Software, Hardware, networking etc)..am sure that am not an expert/advance either though..and I do know that I like (enjoy) what I haves and haves not..

Early 2007, DH was actually kept in a save box for quite a period. He was in the mids of concentrating other stuff in his life..after a crucial incident that almost took his soul..seh..with a natural and strong driven character..he fought back to get his grasp in life..he stood tall to co-exist his heir as the last Beiolman (C) and walked through the road to heaven passing the gate of hell without hesitation..for about 6 months later he made it to the end of the road where he found a fountain of Freedom in his heart! (not quite right..) Ever since then..he lives his life to the fullest..*if ada duit lagi to the maximum..hehe..

He started the 2008 with bigger hopes and new targets. He was heard saying some as..to live free from his past..to be elsewhere in SEA area (lagi jauh lg bagus) before he can enjoy his 30th birthday party...and of course be financially stable..(kesian ba ni..jual diri untuk sesuap nasi..hehe)...Up until now DH is still going strong..banging his head to the wall.. to bring out the best of him for Sabah and his surrounding...hoping to wake up in an early morning, from his sweet dream to see his lovely and pretty wife next to him greeting him with a kiss...walawei..

Hopping for the greater good in life? Sure we does, don't we... How can life be great if you don't believe that dream can come true... and living your dream will eventually helping you making your dream to come true..he.he.. *The Law of Attraction*