3 Decades Life (Almost)

I’ve been very quiet about my career life these days …I was reading my last year’s posts and I thought I had been blogging a lot of my work…my dissatisfaction towards professionalism at work etc…I guess it was due to unsettling environment but I’m glad it all paid off quite well for me…

This year seems to be prosperous for me…glad that we finally found appropriate candidates who are now my colleagues…my main responsibility is to enhance their knowledge, to supervise their work and ensure work performance is improving…although I’ve been getting higher acknowledgment from the management yet I don’t feel like I’m at that level yet…there are plenty of rooms for an improvement...being with the same company for almost 5 years now…is like being loyal to your other half…haha..I could see what I have achieved in those years...I thought of myself being fortunate for the opportunity I’ve been given and that drives me to prove to others that whatever you’re doing…make the best out of it…you got to love what you’re doing or else you’re just a slave earning money at the end of the month trying to enjoy your life…macam pakar motivasi pula kenen..haha..well, I’m not the best person to give speech of career but one thing I’ve learned from experience…never give up…it doesn’t matter what people say about you but it matters what you think of yourself…you got to believe yourself and treat every mistake as another chance to learn to get yourself ready for next challenge…do remember though to admit and accept your mistake…challenge yourself to do things you not good at is one of my best education in life…by the time I review myself for a self appraisal, I couldn’t believe I actually did what I could have avoided years ago….

Perhaps some of my dearest friends have heard of this part of my life…since childhood I’ve always hated English but amazingly every English teachers I’ve known were kind and fond of me (male and female)…mesti sebab saya cute mungkin masa budak-budak kan..haha…my father even bought this English Learning Kit for me but I never cared and always got scolded because I didn’t do anything with it…the kit was full of cassettes and exercise books…I always tried to be a passive student when it comes to English at schools yet the teachers always found a way to get me involved….perhaps it was an advantage of being a cute man-child at that time among female teachers…during my secondary school, I was the ‘green board slave’…I became the English teacher’s secretary to write on the green board…I guess my hand writing was one hell of a kind for a cute-man-child at that time…it was something like a calligraphy..orang dulu-dulu bilang tulisan sambung a.k.a tulisan doctor…tapi tidak juga jadi doctor..haha..I don’t think I could write the same way I used to cause dulu-dulu selalu tulis surat cinta jadi banyak practice la…haha…nowadays we use email, e-card and most common is text messaging to express our feeling...we’ve been modernised!! Shit!! Another reason I could think of why these teachers were fond of me is, my father’s reputation as a teacher (Penolong Kanan)…although I wasn’t into the thing with being the son of a teacher but I’m grateful of being one…hehe…

Having said the above, would you imagine someone like me who hates English as I dislike peanut ended up working with UK based company (UK and Oz based customers)…Bahasa Malaysia becomes the 2nd language…It was very difficult for me when I first joined the company…I was fortunate, the management willing to send me off to British Council Class for 2 continue courses: Business Speaking and English Pronunciation…at first I didn’t care much and thought I was just a lucky bastard but when I was made aware of the cost for these courses (over RM7000) I was more than a lucky bastard!! When I thought of it…it was one of my turning points that made me think of my job more seriously…at that moment I was assured that the company isn’t just a company to hire people but a company who would enhance and shape you to be an invaluable and credible person...neither bond nor contract were signed for me to accept this good deeds from the company…being with the company for this long, one could assume that I have nothing more to learn…well, that assumption is incorrect…I’ve got so many more to learn and the management has been very supportive enough to bring new challenge as per my seniority status…There were moments when I felt depressed (early years) and both CEO as well as the Tech Director approached me and spoke to me as if they were my friends...This has never changed except that the Tech Director had left the company to pursue his own family business…I may be in my safe zone now but I honestly never thought of that way as I have not quite achieved some other aspects…I’m just glad that all this years I’ve never gave up with what I have started….

How long I’m going to stay with the company? That’s one of the question I was asked recently by one of the Manager in the UK…I couldn’t really give definitive answer but I responded by saying something “as long as I’m happy..both responsibility and new challenges...”

Thought of the day...

Sometimes I think of myself as an individual who strives hard to be a man who I am now but at some other time I think striving hard is just an excuse for me to gain better living than the better of me…

Well..to be honest with you I don’t really care what would that make a different of me…and sometimes listening to people who’s more superior than me made me wonder if they really that superior than myself (they always does) and others to have a long story of people living their live to certain extend…I might be doing the same and…frankly speaking when I spoke about some one it reflects my own admiration towards these individuals…..it does not matter how much they earn and how vastly their knowledge were…their philosophy is the only item I look for….I try to understand what makes them speak about these individuals and I even try to relate that to the life I’m having (where applicable) yet at the end of the story..it always fail to stand out and outclass individuals who have always being generous and very calm in many way of their doing yet successful.…

Would you think he would make an impact locally and world wide with his effort of wearing this costumes?

I love to talk about life and living the life yet when an individual begins talking about their thoughts towards breaking through the outside world for an impressive achievement would make me wonder myself (I did this juga ba sometimes as a metaphore) Why think about making the better of the outside world or breaking into their world when even locally an individual couldn’t even make the best out of it (to be a successful individual you’ll have to be among a successful group) It has always been a token for me as non-superior individual to listen and know about the outside as a knowledge of motivation but praising the outside world for an achievement is just not quite right to build up the inner motivation….I sometimes (well, most of the time) observe these individuals and think wow! This individual is really something! And thinking about that I begin to wonder further..why is this individual still here and having a conversation with me when I couldn’t understand what this individual were trying to achieve or tell me….well, I might have an impression towards this kind of individual for being knowledgable and kind for sharing the stories…the rational is always seems to be something intereting for me…was the individual trying to tell me about his/her ambition of being a successful individual preferable the outside world or was the individual trying to tell me that he/she is far more superior than me/the lads…was it a remarks or was it just a chit-chat showing his/her interest of making friends…

I come with this….I might be a little off set but first impression really help to find it way to work things out….I ‘d prefer to think that this kind of individual is pretty much trying to make his/her territory among others…he/she wants others to think he/she is not someone who is just someone but he/she is someone with something….what does it means?It does not bother me and I’m happy for what I have and of course I will always strive to the best of me….to what extend? Be God to decide….sometimes God will work his way out of the unexpected and always the way we couldn’t even get it until a certain period of time (if you’re grateful enough) Being a superior individual does not require high profile or being a well known individual at workplace…if an individual could make good impression and impressive performance at workplace then it is not a crime to think about making an impact onto the outside world….if an individual is just playing plain stupid at workplace thinking that would put him/her at a right path to great achievement….then forget about achieving the outside world….it’s just not quite right….would you play plain stupid at workplace whilst dreaming of gaining more earning in future or getting promotion to higher position…or far more ambitious to achieve something in the outside world?? Isn’t that obvious?? we can be a low profile individual and feel save at our own safety net at workplace but would that make you happy to dream of breaking into the outside world when you’re not making any impression towards the particular??? There's always a right way of doing it rather than talking about not pushing yourself outside the boundry for extra responsibility than what your job description prescribed....take a risk and learn from the risk??? I salute you for being smarter to avoid wider range of responsibility though...

* Betul-betul saya pun macam inda paham ni thought o..haha...