Shattered Dream..

Sick of this life
And not what you'd care
You're not the only one
Whom this feeling I share

Nobody understands,
quite why we're here
We're searchin' for answers
That never appear

But maybe if I looked real hard I'd
I'd see your tryin' too
To understand this life,
That we're all goin' through
(Then when she said she was
gonna like wreck my car...
I didn't know what to do)

Life is beautiful huh..yeah I bet but so sad, it's not that always beautiful as we would have dream of...I'm off today and tomorrow...for the record, I applied these 2 days off since months ago..well to be precise, applied for a purpose of my "shattered dream" to the F1 Night Race in Singapore..I had planned this since last year and made it very clear almost to all my dear friends that I really want to go...as per planned, everything went alright until the last couple of months..budget was totally disrupted..I'm not working as a Manager with a high salary bah...just enough to feed my hungry stomach and fill up my tummy with beers as well as enjoying my hobbies buying couple of DVDs during weekends..but that's that..I have been saving for this trip but due to some complication and unseen event..I had no choice..

See, how important money is to our life...perhaps, it's not that important or affecting 20 years ago when with your 20 penny, you could probably have a delicious amount of fried mee....but not this time around..saying money is not important is nor entirely correct..perhaps saying not affecting? Could that be the correct statement?

Most of my close friends knew that I'm quite a fan of Formula 1 race..I've always watched each races on TV (live..no delay programme please) perhaps due to my current work responsibility these days..I hardly forget when were the next races..what were the times etc...compared to last year and years before..it has always been a must programme for me to watch..I'd be willingly to wake up early morning or stay-up just to get a glimpse of the race especially the first 10 laps..I've been watching F1 races since 8 years ago..

Well..I can take a risk by going there and enjoy my trip to the Lion Country but I don't know what would happen once I come back..you know la if we go to a new place...we would not want to have the feeling of.."wah siok oh tu na kan...cantik o tu na kan..then thinking...inda mau la..nanti habis duit saya...(ignore and walk away)"..having said that, I'm now letting my happiness takes over my satisfaction...I'm happy that I don't have to help spoiling my financial budget but I'm not satisfy that I'm unable to fulfill my dreams...talking to myself..there's always next time...probably next year then..I'll pass this time...

So! what am I going to do with these 2 days off? I still have 9 (+1 is reserved) holidays left...give me money or sponsor me..I'll certainly enjoy them without hesitation! Since I'm so free, these will do then...update my blog..blog hopping...clean the house..(Mr Jew..kitchen is yours ah..)..clean my room...wash my ride...wait! hold on..If I do them all today..what am I going to do tomorrow and weekend pula..I'm going to be alone at home (come with beers if you dare..) this weekend kan Mr Jew..PAKU is going to the Gossip event in Key Hell to perform..send my regards to Jason Lo and Hannah Tan ah Mr Jew..haha...So, I think I'll need to re-organize the plan for today..I've utilized 5 hours of my day off today by getting a nice rest/sleep....so I still have around 12-18 hours to go..ahaha...how la mau rest kalu ada tu perasaan mau fully use 24 hours..alright guys..enjoy your day in office..and happy working!

*Anybody recognize the above song..its my old time favourite..love the lyrics