Shattered Dream..

Sick of this life
And not what you'd care
You're not the only one
Whom this feeling I share

Nobody understands,
quite why we're here
We're searchin' for answers
That never appear

But maybe if I looked real hard I'd
I'd see your tryin' too
To understand this life,
That we're all goin' through
(Then when she said she was
gonna like wreck my car...
I didn't know what to do)

Life is beautiful huh..yeah I bet but so sad, it's not that always beautiful as we would have dream of...I'm off today and tomorrow...for the record, I applied these 2 days off since months ago..well to be precise, applied for a purpose of my "shattered dream" to the F1 Night Race in Singapore..I had planned this since last year and made it very clear almost to all my dear friends that I really want to go...as per planned, everything went alright until the last couple of months..budget was totally disrupted..I'm not working as a Manager with a high salary bah...just enough to feed my hungry stomach and fill up my tummy with beers as well as enjoying my hobbies buying couple of DVDs during weekends..but that's that..I have been saving for this trip but due to some complication and unseen event..I had no choice..

See, how important money is to our life...perhaps, it's not that important or affecting 20 years ago when with your 20 penny, you could probably have a delicious amount of fried mee....but not this time around..saying money is not important is nor entirely correct..perhaps saying not affecting? Could that be the correct statement?

Most of my close friends knew that I'm quite a fan of Formula 1 race..I've always watched each races on TV (live..no delay programme please) perhaps due to my current work responsibility these days..I hardly forget when were the next races..what were the times etc...compared to last year and years before..it has always been a must programme for me to watch..I'd be willingly to wake up early morning or stay-up just to get a glimpse of the race especially the first 10 laps..I've been watching F1 races since 8 years ago..

Well..I can take a risk by going there and enjoy my trip to the Lion Country but I don't know what would happen once I come back..you know la if we go to a new place...we would not want to have the feeling of.."wah siok oh tu na kan...cantik o tu na kan..then thinking...inda mau la..nanti habis duit saya...(ignore and walk away)"..having said that, I'm now letting my happiness takes over my satisfaction...I'm happy that I don't have to help spoiling my financial budget but I'm not satisfy that I'm unable to fulfill my dreams...talking to myself..there's always next time...probably next year then..I'll pass this time...

So! what am I going to do with these 2 days off? I still have 9 (+1 is reserved) holidays left...give me money or sponsor me..I'll certainly enjoy them without hesitation! Since I'm so free, these will do then...update my blog..blog hopping...clean the house..(Mr Jew..kitchen is yours ah..)..clean my room...wash my ride...wait! hold on..If I do them all today..what am I going to do tomorrow and weekend pula..I'm going to be alone at home (come with beers if you dare..) this weekend kan Mr Jew..PAKU is going to the Gossip event in Key Hell to perform..send my regards to Jason Lo and Hannah Tan ah Mr Jew..haha...So, I think I'll need to re-organize the plan for today..I've utilized 5 hours of my day off today by getting a nice rest/sleep....so I still have around 12-18 hours to go..ahaha...how la mau rest kalu ada tu perasaan mau fully use 24 hours..alright guys..enjoy your day in office..and happy working!

*Anybody recognize the above song..its my old time favourite..love the lyrics

PAKU (has returned)

Last night..PAKU played at The Habana, Kristal Point, Penang. A newly open bistro-pub 2-3 weeks ago. At the ground floor, it is entirely a Cafe selling/serving pasta, pizza etc and the 2nd floor is a place where you can have a drink as you would in any normal pub ranging from beer to wine..it has a wine room that been setup to an optimum temperature for wine restoration (13 degrees?)..since it is a new place so I guess I would not want to miss the opportunity to come and have a look (survey) ...you can go to the 2nd floor either by the stair through the Cafe or a lift...once you enter the door/entrance (2nd floor), you'll see a wide window at the far front where you can see the main road..the view is quite nice (cars moving in 2 directions)..I wish it has a balcony or any of that kind...it may look nicer and more relaxing to be able to enjoy the night breeze with couple of cold beers...chatting whilst listening to live-band-music or DJ's...the owner is a fan to PAKU and he's been kind enough to give PAKU the honour to be the first band to play at his place...sepa nama dia tu Mr Jew..Mr.Derick? He was the ex-co-owner of another pub called Frenz but due to some complication..he withdrew himself then opened this new place..

PAKU hasn't been to any gig for over a month due to the departure of Riz (lead guitarist with the straw hat or sometimes cowboy hat) to the US...He has just returned and now they're going to get busy again..with lot of gig/invitations..well they're celebrity bah..tapi bila kau mau kasi mandi saya beer ni Mr Jew?haha...so after resting for over a month..it is timely for them to warm up and get things done before their 2nd album that was said to be released early next year.....any of you that would like to buy their original with autographs on it..do let me know..haha..so I can get more bottles from Mr Jew..

After resting for over 2 weeks..I had a drink again last night...not many but good enough for an old man like me..wahaha..I drank 7 bottles then another 1 bottle was a consolation for "I'm with the band"..haha..thanks Jew..cuba ko kasi tu stout masa saya baru sampai..inda payah ko paksa..sendiri pigi ambil.haha...the above picture was taken using my mobile..sorry that Ms Leena and Mr Jew were not seen in the picture..at the bottom is the flier for their up-coming gig, a charity event organised by Gossip..so whoever (especially Sabahan) that interested knowing this band up-close..perhaps a fan to Mr Jew...haha..come and meet them..a reminder, this band is "logop-band"...especially Mr Jew..so bring along lot of moneys..haha..

According to Izwan (the vocalist), these are the celebrities/artists that will take part in this charity event...(referred to his bulletin in FS)

Ticket price: RM 5.00 *100% ticket sales shall be channeled to charity*.

Artists Line-up: Hannah Tan | Suki Low | Jason Lo | PAKU | One Buck Short | Juwita Suwito | Shila | Ayu | Ady Suwardy | Danny Koo | Chervie Ho | Jyin Poh | Serene Cheam | Zax Lee | Bittersweet | Army Of Three | Free To Fall

PAKU: Fete De La Musique 2008 at New World Park

What is exactly Fete De La Musique? It started in France so its name..also known as World Music Day is a music festival taking place on every 21st June..not exactly on 21st but usually in the Summer Solstice....the festival spread to over a hundred cities like Australia, UK, Argentina, Romania, Germany, Philippines...many more...as well as Malaysia..history tells that, it was first started in 1982...an all-night music celebration..now it is held simultaneously at each of the cities involved..KL was on 21st June though..my other friend's band, Gazzo played there..my first was in 2006..then last year and again this year...I came not only to support Mr. Jew's band, PAKU but also I wanted to enjoy the music of our local band...when I was still in secondary school..I used to go to underground gig in Sandakan, Sabah....those black metal musics...punk..thrash...those were my kind and I was once them..below were some pictures taken during my 1 hour visit to the festival..taken by my friend..click on the picture to enlarge..

Whilst waiting for PAKU to perform we were entertained by these ladies (a dance show)..although their steps didn't really storm the yard but their 'show' did a great job for the crowd..pandai banyak tiba-tiba..ha.ha..

No problem at all..

"I drink, I get drunk, I fall down...No Problem"...thats the quote for today to start...on Thursday, I had a drink session with my housemate..Mr. Jabian (not a real name but that's what we've been calling him)..it was around 10:xx pm and I've had earlier thought of having a couple of bottles that night to boon my "Sleepless in Penang"....he actually just came back from KL...went there for an interview (post in KK), I was supposed to fetch him but I missed his text message... when I know he is already home... I returned his text message earlier to say sorry..ya kesian la ba..terpaksa naik teksi balik rumah...forgive me Mr. Jabian...at the same time, I was playing with his mood either he wants to have a couple of drinks..he then replied.."OK ba kalo ko"..I don't really know since when I first heard this statement..it's now a famous reply to any kind of request...so I went to meet up with him...and had 2 bottles..then 4 bottles..by 2 am we had 8 bottles already on the table..we chatted about his interview..he has a very high possibility to be hired...Good for you Mr. Jabian..we were 3 actually that night..his girlfriend is currently in Penang and she also had a couple of glasses as well..I was supposed to be in my sleep already at this time..instead of having a really nice dream..I was storing loads of fluid into my stomach...so the end result was, we contributed another 10 bottles for the beer manufacturer to fill another batch of Carls...when I reached home, it was already past 3 am..I need to depart at 6:30 am (latest time) to go to work later that morning..my shift starts at 7 am...I called someone and chatted for an hour then went to sleep..time was...4am!!!!!!! What a night....

Last night (Friday)..my housemate Mr. Jew and his band PAKU was invited to perform in a charity show meant for the China's earthquake victims..So, I joined to watch them and other invited bands...he said there would be around 10 bands..it was a wasted event!!..it was held at the exterior parking space of Queensbay Mall..this was OK to me..but the standard was so low and even lower than a fun fair kinda stage show..the crowd was less than 100 people... charity? no booth was been setup...they have a donation box but it does not look like a donation box..they left the box on the stage and hoping others would come forward to put some money in it...what the hell!! Heard that the event was sponsored by 100 Plus and Coca-Cola...100 Plus can drinks were provided free to bands' members...PAKU played 4 of their latest malay songs that are currently in recording process for their 1st offical album with 17 songs..(they had released they debut album with 3 songs and a video clip a year ago then went to UK..played at several night spots there)...the event was so disappointing..afterwards, we went to Club Dusun... another drinking session, only this time I was with Mr. Jew(Bassist) and Mr. Alex (Drummer)....we had Tiger mixed with Stout and a fried fries as a side dish..We adjourned at around 3 am as Mr. Alex needs to go to work today...I watched another DVD (Jumper) then went to sleep..

Today I woke up at 11:xx am, my body is a little bit fatigue and restless..but that's OK..no big deal...although it will affect my body but it never occurred to me to think this can be used as an excuse to not to drink continuesly...thankfully I have no problem with "boroi" issue although I drank loads of that fluid..do I have drinking problem?..am I an addict?...Totally Not!!..I like to hang out with friends and have a couple of drinks..that' all....last night Mr. Jew said that my "drunk meter" is already dead (mulfunction) He said...once I've hit that certain amount or mood..there will always be another round and round afterwards..(inda mau stop la ba ni kunun..tp mata jadi sepet suda)..I had so many experience..either bad or good...due to drunk..the worst I think was back in December 2006....they all are now my experience...as I personally believe that the more experience you have..the more you know about yourself....is there going to be another tonight..we might have one...Mr. Jabian's girlfriend said on Thursday, she wanted to treat us a drink and some BBQ on Saturday (today)..I love BBQ!Looking forward to that...now I want to watch another DVD..Have a great weekend guys!!