3 Decades Life (Almost)

I’ve been very quiet about my career life these days …I was reading my last year’s posts and I thought I had been blogging a lot of my work…my dissatisfaction towards professionalism at work etc…I guess it was due to unsettling environment but I’m glad it all paid off quite well for me…

This year seems to be prosperous for me…glad that we finally found appropriate candidates who are now my colleagues…my main responsibility is to enhance their knowledge, to supervise their work and ensure work performance is improving…although I’ve been getting higher acknowledgment from the management yet I don’t feel like I’m at that level yet…there are plenty of rooms for an improvement...being with the same company for almost 5 years now…is like being loyal to your other half…haha..I could see what I have achieved in those years...I thought of myself being fortunate for the opportunity I’ve been given and that drives me to prove to others that whatever you’re doing…make the best out of it…you got to love what you’re doing or else you’re just a slave earning money at the end of the month trying to enjoy your life…macam pakar motivasi pula kenen..haha..well, I’m not the best person to give speech of career but one thing I’ve learned from experience…never give up…it doesn’t matter what people say about you but it matters what you think of yourself…you got to believe yourself and treat every mistake as another chance to learn to get yourself ready for next challenge…do remember though to admit and accept your mistake…challenge yourself to do things you not good at is one of my best education in life…by the time I review myself for a self appraisal, I couldn’t believe I actually did what I could have avoided years ago….

Perhaps some of my dearest friends have heard of this part of my life…since childhood I’ve always hated English but amazingly every English teachers I’ve known were kind and fond of me (male and female)…mesti sebab saya cute mungkin masa budak-budak kan..haha…my father even bought this English Learning Kit for me but I never cared and always got scolded because I didn’t do anything with it…the kit was full of cassettes and exercise books…I always tried to be a passive student when it comes to English at schools yet the teachers always found a way to get me involved….perhaps it was an advantage of being a cute man-child at that time among female teachers…during my secondary school, I was the ‘green board slave’…I became the English teacher’s secretary to write on the green board…I guess my hand writing was one hell of a kind for a cute-man-child at that time…it was something like a calligraphy..orang dulu-dulu bilang tulisan sambung a.k.a tulisan doctor…tapi tidak juga jadi doctor..haha..I don’t think I could write the same way I used to cause dulu-dulu selalu tulis surat cinta jadi banyak practice la…haha…nowadays we use email, e-card and most common is text messaging to express our feeling...we’ve been modernised!! Shit!! Another reason I could think of why these teachers were fond of me is, my father’s reputation as a teacher (Penolong Kanan)…although I wasn’t into the thing with being the son of a teacher but I’m grateful of being one…hehe…

Having said the above, would you imagine someone like me who hates English as I dislike peanut ended up working with UK based company (UK and Oz based customers)…Bahasa Malaysia becomes the 2nd language…It was very difficult for me when I first joined the company…I was fortunate, the management willing to send me off to British Council Class for 2 continue courses: Business Speaking and English Pronunciation…at first I didn’t care much and thought I was just a lucky bastard but when I was made aware of the cost for these courses (over RM7000) I was more than a lucky bastard!! When I thought of it…it was one of my turning points that made me think of my job more seriously…at that moment I was assured that the company isn’t just a company to hire people but a company who would enhance and shape you to be an invaluable and credible person...neither bond nor contract were signed for me to accept this good deeds from the company…being with the company for this long, one could assume that I have nothing more to learn…well, that assumption is incorrect…I’ve got so many more to learn and the management has been very supportive enough to bring new challenge as per my seniority status…There were moments when I felt depressed (early years) and both CEO as well as the Tech Director approached me and spoke to me as if they were my friends...This has never changed except that the Tech Director had left the company to pursue his own family business…I may be in my safe zone now but I honestly never thought of that way as I have not quite achieved some other aspects…I’m just glad that all this years I’ve never gave up with what I have started….

How long I’m going to stay with the company? That’s one of the question I was asked recently by one of the Manager in the UK…I couldn’t really give definitive answer but I responded by saying something “as long as I’m happy..both responsibility and new challenges...”